so with my next paycheck im gonna get a cheapy webcam so i can do video updates and make this whole blog thing easier on me ... my time has been extreamly cramped lately and is gonna get more soo when i start really goin to att alot

well its official... i am a part of americas top team the u.s. premiere mma team and one of my teachers is none other than a ufc fighter named...wilson gouviea this is gonna be amazing... time to kick some ass they said they could get me to lose 60 in like 3-4 months here we go

hey everyone sorry its taken me soooooo long to get on here and update it was a long weekend and im adjusting my work schedual.. all I can say is MY BDAY THIS WEEKEND BITCHES

well only 2 more days till I can get my workout clothes im super excited working out and running will help me keep motivated to eat right... I am feeling good I am cooking everything from scratch and its sooooo good.... I havent forgot anything about cooking im rocking it I wanna cook for someone else because I really wanna know if I am any good

well its been a minute... I had no computer yesterday. I cant wait till friday I get money so I can afford shoes for running and clothes... I am taking a huge a leap and buying a 2xl chef coat so that means i gotta get into it . I am feeling sooo good and things are getting nice.... I now fit into some pants I didnt before... Yay things are getting great.

its the end of the weekend and because this is the begining I ate somethings I shouldnt have and I drank.... I have to stop this and get this under control. I cant wait to get my walking sneakers... Now that that update is out of the way... I am going to start to stop goin out to eat and make dinner at home only... its gonna be amazing Ive got the skills and I have a reinvigorated passion for cooking.

well tonight I am proud of myself I have conqured something I thought was gonna be hard.... portion control.... I didnt eat all of my dinner and I felt perfectly full I am sooo happy

epic fail on dinner tonight... my dads a bastard and made some of his little hamburgers I know that I should have said fuck you I dont want them... but I didnt... but its ok... a small slip up is nothing.... havent drank soda in a while or fast food... time to kick it up a notch.. im gonna go to a party this weekend... no food or drink for me... unless its water.... or tea... but none of my friends drink tea....so.. WATER IT IS lol

well today im gonna take it easy.... its rainy and shitty outside im gonna do some light workouts and have some chicken tonight with a cajun spice...but honestly im starting to feel better its good... I like it and you know what I am going to stay on this... im gonna be buying a punching set up for the outside...

just got done doing 20 pushups and 35 sit ups.... I know I know its not much..... but I am proud of myself.... it makes me happy to see everyone supporting me so much... thank you

well congrats brock your in miserable pain....I did basic excersizes this morning but because I dont have any walking/jogging shoes and my knee is feeling miserable.. fuck my life... so I guess until I get shoes I will work out indoors glad I have a bowflex and I can do push ups and sit ups.... I dont quite know how much of what to do its weird.... I expect everyone goes through this at first that they just have to figure out what they are doing.... I ate a turkey sub and some eggs this morning and for lunch...LOTS OF WATER AND TEA AND FRUIT JUCIES.... well I guess its a trial and error thing... I will post after I work out tonight.... yay...and thank you everyone for your kind words and support

you know.... im having a hard time sleeping more than anything the pain in my legs... I think starting out doing 2 hrs a day of walking was a little ambitious but... I am going to do some excersies tomorrow am and walk in the pm....I am hoping that I can figure out a good eating plan... thats the hardest part. I just need time to settle into this and I know I will be perfect.... well im going to bed a busy day tomorrow of push ups situps and walking.... I think im doing good right now...

The Real Day 1

Well I woke up this morning and something incredible happend... Instead of saying fuck it and going back to sleep I woke up and said fuck it im gonna wake up and do this fucking thing..... so I walked for an hour... I dont know what it equated to but I walked alot... its weird I dont look at this like its something I dont wanna do....I am looking at this like something I wanna do and im sooooo happy right now.... I cant wait for all this to pay off a good friend told me once "pain is inevitable suffering is not".This is something im glad im collecting in this blog.... I havent quite figured this blog thing out I will though. Oh and I just got home from walking 1 hr and a half... insane...

Pre-Game....so to speak

Well.... this is the first blog ive ever had....not quite sure what to say... so I am going to be perfectly honest.... My name is Brock Devon Carrow....and I currently weigh 406 lbs.... how did I let it get this far....well its alot of things....but the most important thing to realize is its me... I have never been this open before and its kinda odd for me.I have alot of inner looking to do... i am going to work as hard as i can to be a new me. This is not a game for me. THIS IS LIFE OR DEATH NOW.. I figure this is a good wayto keep me motivated because I figure if I mess this up... my friends will kill me lol... I wanna be happy and I want a new life... So starting tomorrow I am gonna start waking up at 7 a.m. and walking an hour... and walking at 7 p.m. I am setting a goal for 280 lbs by christmas... and I will do it... I start tomorrow... see ya guys later...